Things happen quite frequently these few weeks.
And the conclusion I have is:I hate drama, drama hates me.
Yes, I hate drama.
Drama is the reason why people are separated.
Drama makes my parents argue over small thing, and end up not understanding each other's feeling.
Drama makes me and my sister fight over unrelated stuffs.
Drama creates gap between me and my friends.
Drama makes life worse.
For my entire life, drama is something that I will really love to avoid.
That is why I am not good in argue.
I would rather stand there and be quiet, so the drama will fade off.
Apparently, people in my life loves to be dramatic with me.
Like, really.
No one can ever try to settle things in a rational, or in a happy way.
Everyone just like to put extra emotions and create drama.
I understand. Every human is selfish.
It's nature instinct.
Even I am selfish myself.
No one will not kill one another if the only food left in the planet is human.
Right?
Nothing is wrong with it.
But, think about it.
It is just a small matter.
And if you really understand me enough,
You should know that I hate drama.
I hate being not trusted.
I hate being accused.
Maybe you don't mean it, but I will feel that way if you started a drama.
I told you before,
I will never change who I am for you.
Because after so many relationships I had,
I realize that changing myself is not the key to have a better relationship.
It is in fact, a way to prove how pathetic I am,
To rather change myself for a guy, than having a guy that loves me for who I am.
You promised me, you will not change me.
You said before, you can accept who I am.
But now,
It is totally a different situation.
I will still be the who I am,
And if you cant accept it,
I am sorry, maybe I am not for you.
How long have we know each other?
Since the day I become a Christian.
We have been spending time together for more than more than 3 years,
And now, you are not the one I know, anymore.
You know that I am busy with my college life,
But still, you find an anonymous person to talk to,
And the subject is me.
Too busy for you, and probably forget about you since I have a boyfriend.
Drama.
That is the moment I realize, I don't really know you anymore.
Please, look at yourself.
You have so many friends to hang out with,
You have so many friends to talk to,
You have so many plans in a day,
How do you expect me to react in this situation?
I promised you I will ask you out when I am free from class.
I called, I asked,
The answer you give me is either you are with someone else or you have plans, already.
Please, I am not the one to blame,
In fact, no one.
Just stop being dramatic, people.
I really hate it.
Because drama makes me lost you guys, the people I love.
I love you.
