Look back.

Went out with my friends today.

Church mates, to be precise.

It's been quite some time since I last hang out with them.

It is fun. I miss them like crazy.

Miss all the moments with them.

After that, I fetch all of them home from One Utama.

After I send the last person home,

I realize that, I'm at his house area.

My heart start pounding, very fast.

I am shivering.

I was suppose to turn left to go home, 

And turn right is to his house.

And I decided to turn right.

I am surprised.

But I still drive all the way to his house.

I am really nervous and scared as I am reaching soon to his house.

I passed by.

I saw his neighbor.

I hope he doesn't sees me.

I saw his house. He is not there. 

He is off to study, I guess.

The house looks fine.

Everything is still the same.

And I stop shivering.

Drive myself home.

When I am on the way home, I shed a tear.

Really wanna cry out so bad but I got no tear.

How I wish I can do everything that we used to do before.

We go out, spend time together,

then we head to his house, chill,

And we go out for dinner with his family.

But when I think again,

If I am given a chance to start over again,

Will I choose to keep what I said?

The answer is, no.

I will still ask for a break up.

In reality,

There is still something that we will never get to fix for now.

And now, everything seems impossible to achieve, already.

You have your life,

And I have mine too.

So I conclude myself,

It's just an imagination and the remaining feelings on you that I thought I never wanna let go.

:)

Its the memory.

In my heart,

I wanna say,

I love you.

Forever.

Hope you are doing fine with your life now. 

And so,

I am back to my life again.

Moving forward and excited about going back to college again.

The effort that I put for my academic,

The time that I spend with my friends,

The spirit that I share with my Performing Arts people.

I love them more.

Adios.